Smile
Damn damn damn damn damn it!
Why? Why couldn't I do it?
Think of all the wonderful, wonderful things that could've gone my way if I did. But they're gone.
Everytime I want to try I felt that I was nailed to the ground.
Like I was drowning in something. Somewhere. Somehow.
It was all so simple, yet all I did was being an idiot and nothing else.
Because all I had to do was smile. And I didn't.
"... And then she clubbed me on the back on my head."
"Hey man."
"Dude! Its been, like, a while, man! How've ya been?"
"Fucked. I got fucked real bad."
"Oh man...... what happened?"
"Sigh...... I dunno where to start man......"
"Try man, from the beginning. Or just the parts that you want to tell me or something."
"All right..... its her again."
"Everything about the girl. Yeah. I've guessed. Well, what about her?"
"I dunno...... sigh...... well...... she keeps getting at me......you know its so hard, I try to be nice and cool about everything, yet, she still kept being cold and biting and all......"
"Yeah...... well, what happened this time? What did she do to you?"
"Man, I was like running already man...... couldn't bear to look back. I was running so fast man, trying to get away...... but its tough, she kept breathing down my neck...... it was just so tough man......"
"You were being stalked by her?"
"More like chased by her, as in a bad way, you know? She was wielding this cudgel and screwing up her face with this horrific murderous look...... I can't believe anyone could manifest so much hatred in them for anyone. It was so terrifying, I started to run, and she came after me."
"Why was she coming after you?"
"I've no bloody idea! Must be something I said or I did, but I can't remember! Actually come to think of it I never did anything! I guess she just hate me. Everytime I look at her I could see that murderous glint in her eyes."
"It sounds like you're just paranoid man! C'mon, she's not that bad!"
"Yes she is! She is that terrible! She is! She is!"
"Ok, fine...... but what did she do to you?"
"Well I ran all I could until my legs gave out...... I collapse panting on the ground...... and then she stopped at where I was and grinned at me."
"Grinned at you?"
"Menancing grin. It was so evil...... its terrible! I sat up and wanted to stand......"
"But......"
"But she whipped out her cudgel...... and then she clubbed me on the back of my head."
"What?"
"She did that!"
"But...... why?"
"Because she felt like it? I could feel my eyes shudder in their socket as she brought the cudgel on my head......"
"Dude, you should, like, talk to her about this thing."
"Excuse me?"
"Talk to her. Tell her how you feel about her treating you like this."
"What? What the hell are you talking about?"
"Talk to her. Tell her how you feel. There has to be a compromise reached somewhere."
"What has come over you? I can't talk to her! She's gonna kill me!"
"Come on...... I'm sure she just wants to clear things up. Really."
"Clear things up? By clubbing me on the back of my head? Hell, no!"
"I think its the best solution."
"Well I think not. I'm gonna get killed if I do that."
"Sigh...... then what are you going to do? Live in fear for the rest of your life?"
"Well...... argh...... damn, I dunno!"
"Talk to her."
"But...... well...... argh...... sigh...... all right...... I will...... I just hope it works."
"Trust me. It will."