Continued on my thoughts about the others of 4e
Yuankai: Big guy. Think he has a big heart too. And yes, you ARE lame. But that's ok, we need some people like you in this world to make our lives more colourful.
Wei Ren: I know not much about him. Plays CS with me, and has brains for E-maths. Kind of the opposite of Jeffrey. Oh, and check out his tongue. Wierd. Ok, maybe I was mean. But it is wierd!
Jun Bin: I sat with him in Sec 4 Term 1. Man he is lame! But he is a nice person though. Extremly competent at mugging, but the crown still stays with Jeffrey. (damn getting a headache so I might type everything shorter.)
Pak: Haiz I dun want to just say a word, then skip to the next guy. It might be the headache, but I feel sad for this fellow. Oh no, my compassionate side is playing tricks on me. He comes from a broken home... Dad a gambler, who gambled away all they had, until the debtors came to claim the furniture. Then his mom had to work to support the whole family. Sigh. He's constantly trying to find his goal in life... trying to be accepted and treated like somebody by somebody. Always finding the group that will accept him... and trying to learn from people and trying to imitate them so as to be accepted. Tries to be cool so that he could be part of the group. All the while he's trying to be part of the group... oh god... oh why? Why? Why is he so unfortunate... Hey my headache' gone! YES! PAK SUX! PAK SUX! HAHAHAHA!
Jeffrey: You know how his daily life is like? Morning wake up. Breakfast. Then study. Till noon. Lunch. Then study. Till dusk. Then dinner. Then study. Till 11 p.m. Bedtime. Wow. And he also says he only combs his hair when going out, and he also puts gel when going out. Side parting. Like some 60 year-old ah peh. Plays guitar, thinks he's so cool becos he plays guitar. Hahaha. Looks like someone from the 70s. Oh I can't get over the Cartoon Network T-shirt, Kiddy Jeans and the Denim Jacket. And he slings the jacket over his shoulders like he is damn bloody cool. Oh and also the stupid wrestling thing he does. GET A LIFE!
My REAL Colourgenics Profile
Everyone feels despondent at times ... and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich - you are trying to bury your head in the sand ... But that won't work. You have to face reality .....
Being a likeable person .. you get in well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to "Rock your boat". You want to "love" and to be loved".
You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are.. but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share... and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The Inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence .... but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity... and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are.. but no.. you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself make you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest ... beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
The need for admiration and to be regarded as "someone special" is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special.. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this "complex" by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play ... or in the home. Stop trying so hard... and you will find that people will like you for who you are ... not for who you are pretending to be....
OH MY GOD... This really, really accurate... sigh... now I'm really really depressed.